Wake me up

...when September ends...

The Spring will be a dreamy memory.... I have been thinkin about what someone told me... how men always want things (romance-wise) to be like "the beginning"...

I must admit that I sometimes wistfully remember that feeling: the nerves/nausea, the feeling of anticipation and 'not knowing what will happen next'..

but, i think i'm so OVER that stuff: childhood games almost, to me...

I want that goodgood luvin and that's all folks - - f*** da bulls**t...

I wanna know my baby is there for me, and I wanna build things together, to gather my energies and push them in a singular direction of undeniable force....

devotion: love: surrender:

One-ness

Can this be mine? With one who's divine??

She's not here - - so it must be the case that she is there.... --- but where is there??

Searchin inside me, searchin inside... u

And that's for real

rainy day

Senti mental lee...

I get this feeling, when I see you - I see this thing in your eyes.

But I can't look there anymore... It's not 'possible'

I want to ... I see something there that makes me warm. It makes you warm.--

I know we must be ..distanced from each other,.... but I can't take it... I find it hard to just let this feeling remain dormant,- cuz I'm afraid of what it will be like if I go so long... too long... without having the privilege of looking there... I'm afraid you'll let someone else see your eyes, and feel that feeeling... but they'll never see what I have seen, or feel what I know...

to be true - to be u

So I listen to the rain, and my thoughts are like applesauce on a sunday

and it goes so slowly, this pain, though i try to make it slight

don't want to be over you

but you are so far away for me

illadelph wholelife

Almost missed my flight to philly on account of AmericanAirline's missed inspections;
Southwest got me there. Sinnin and swingin all wknd long. Always love seein the family:-) now more than ever. Startin looking into startin this Family business with me mommy:) more on that later...

I love philly- even though you can't get into a lot of the clubs if you're wearing Timberlands (but you can wear sneakers - go figure): I danced the night away at the Marmont, and met the beautiful Tay Adams, -(10yrs l8ter!)- and then got tasty diner food before going home...

Sat: worked on financial accounting; yoga + calisthenics in the sun; visited with my grandmother; distributed gifts; then rodeout with my cuz and went to this small house party in Overbrook.-

Sun: somehow woke up and had slowly got myself together to ride to Forman Mills and then me, Inja, and Jordan wnet to the BubbleHouse for a House Dance Party. Also had, arguably, the best burger of recent memory (on foccacia with smoked gouda, japanese hotsauce and sweet potato fries with orange ginger sauce) mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm....
somehow ended up getin up with T and Kalea at the Manayunk Brewery

too much up late i still need sleep and where is my quality software project managment book?

Nguzo at Double Door thurs 4/17; Morseland sat 4/19 ----------------------->>>>>

kiss my baby for me: and kiss me too

keep going baby

If at first you don't succeed,- wake up early and try again the next day...

Thus, I was able to successfully procure my spot at the upcoming Erykah Badu/Roots show at the Chicago Theatre. Meanwhile -- - transitions - - -

movin on: I end relationships which no longer seem to serve their intended purpose. Sadlee

movin on: I embark on the final ten weeks as a Computer Science student, and I begin to contemplate the next steps in my career,

movin on: will i still be here in september?

and the burning question: who is She?

and on and on and on....

alone

sittin up in my room
thinkin bout all the things i wanna do to u

sittin up in my doom
sweatin one who choose
ignore me


sittin up in the fumes
and the dust fallin pon me

sittin up all alone,
wonderin what for this which purpose must be

like purpple MUST be ...

digression = imperfection, therefore my statemnt is tainted

so i will abate it
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